Yiiiiiiii~!

Sui zai bao!!


I miss you!!!!

Chinese New Year Wave.

First of all,
Happy Chinese New Year 2012!!!!
It has been 1 week since last Friday I came back to Kampar. Well, I'll be going back to KL on this coming Sunday. :( Time flies. 
I spent most of the time with family during this NY holiday. I'm gonna list it out:
- Sing K with brother and sister.
- Reunion dinner with grandma and family.
- Buffet party with all relatives.
- Stay home eat biscuits.
- Stay home drink 100plus and Shandy.
- Stay home watch TV.
- Stay home fb.
- Stay home stare at the monitor.
- Stay home sleep.
*cough*  I'm such a good daughter. LOL.


Chor3, I went out with Mr.Yap Wen Bin. This boy only hangs out with his"wife" after coming back to Kampar. I emo! >< But at last, I still manage to date him out. 
We went to post office to renew my L license and he post something to Johor. Then we went to Kampar station to buy my Silver ETS ticket which costs me RM22 since I didn't show my student ID card. He bought ticket too but he is going back to KL on this coming Friday which is tomorrow. HAHA! After that, we reached his house after we went to Tesco Kampar to buy cucumber. Stayed awhile, we decided to go to Secret Recipe to enjoy a little piece of cake. Lastly, He fetched me home and went to take his "wife".  ><!!! Then I forever alone.


Chor4, I'd joined my secondary schoolmates, Poh, Chen, Looi, Lau, Melvin, Joe and Leong go to pay a new year call (BAI NIAN's google translate). I feels so happy that finally I managed to meet all of them and chitchat alot. Everyone had changed. We are going to hold a reunion gathering next year ya. 


Oppa went to China. He has been missing for 4 days and I keep thinking of him. So damn miss you, Alvin Ho! What are you doing? When do you sleep these days? Do you miss me like I miss you that much? Did you eat that sugar-coated haws? >< 
KAY. I feels that I'm like a soh po. Going to sleep now.
"Goodnight oppa. Sleep tight. Love you. =)"

-_-

I  WANT  A  BETTER  ME!!!!!

Woof!

Woohuuu~ I'm so excited about my friend is going to be in a relationship!!
Is that true? Not sure yet. But I just can't stop myself. Hahahaha. xDDD
Phew~ 
Let's talk about today. I went to Viva mall with friends to eat my long-waited yogurt! It was just nice and I really want to enjoy it again and again! Unfortunately, it was too rush as I had to go back for my Chemistry class. During the class, I received a message from friend, Maggie, and knew that her uncle's shop want to hire worker. Woof! I want to work!! Actually quite worried about that I can't manage my studies after working. But what to do? Just have a try!! "Risk is opportunity"!!
I went to studio after the class. Just a few ones in the studio and I just slacked around there until 6.30pm. Aaron treated me taufu fa!!! Thank you!
Woof! Today is a nice day~ For every single moment!!

4 months.

4 months? Yea. I never realised it'd been 4 months. You looked sad when you figured out I didn't remember it. 

You might not know about the 4th month later, it would be a really unstable condition for our relationship. Superstitious? Yea, I am. 

That incident hit me even it was just a small little tiny thingy for you, perhaps, for me too. You said I'm feeling insecure now yet I don't think so. I didn't want you to text me all the times while other girls do it normally to their boyfriends. Because I don't want the last incident happens to me again. I did allow you to play games even though there are terms and conditions. I don't think it's too much for you. I think and prepare well for our relationship because I don't want any argument between us. You said you don't like I do this, I listen to you; don't like I do that, I listen to you. Even though I didn't say it in words, I did it with actions. Even though I just did a little, but it was a big step for me. And now, that incident was happened just like that. I realised I think too much. In this relationship, I'm too protecting. I realised I treated you too good and just let the incident hit me like that. Wasting my sleeping time, keep waking up just to check for your "not coming" message until the next morning, I have to know your safety from FACEBOOK. Just like my ex!! Just like what I did to my ex. I hate waiting, but keep waiting. I love sleeping but I always waste my sleeping time for my love one. Even the reason you gave me just same like him. You like to think vice verse. But you never think this vice verse. You just treat this like a small little tiny thingy and ask me everyday for the reason I'm becoming like this. Then, I feel stupid doing all this for you. I started to feel that you're not worth at all. Like him. When did I start to care so much about you? I told myself not to care so much. Not to love you so much. Right now I realised when I did care and love, and it's the time for me to get hurt! 

Didn't you realised this me is so familiar? You're right. It was the beginning me. Insecure? No. Just, I tell myself again, not to care so much, not to love you so much.

I know you will hurt when you see this. I know I'm so selfish. I just want to protect myself.